Had my 39th week check up yesterday. Cant help hating the situation im in and all teary and dready and stuff. Demanding answers to calm my anxiety down. My hubs notice i was not myself keeping mum all day through the night. Middle of the night i woke up overheated and couldn't sleep. Bath and manage to use the time to reflect a little bit about what happen. Especially on how other events happen that ends up becoming favourable rather then distress. Like the time when i thought i lost hopes in getting posted to another school. It was unexpected that i was accepted. In a weird way also. Somehow my testimonials and their connections works its way to get me posted. The other unexpected event was being pregnant itself. We tried a long time until i gave up and treid not to try so hard. Coz im quite a control freak, planning the dates and all. When i kind of let go not gave up. I was surprised double whamed with the other great news. After much thought i think same with this difficult situation im in. I must try to let go. Expect the unexpected. Don worry about the worries. Let it happen. And believe that the outcome may turn out favourable, however it happens. Insyallah. This means no more getting freak out and doing all sorts to induce labour naturally. Getting all stressed out, depressed and sad. Just try to let go and enjoy this moment. Dont even worry about clashing with the wedding. No pressure. It happens insyallah it happens favourably. Expect the unexpected. Worry free. Be around people who supports you and love you and care for your well being. Dont blame them if they cant. Just try not to let go of the strings abit and hopefully this will change your mood.