Its hard to maintain staying happy and positive. I felt it when i first woke up. But when the day dragged out w my older daughter things took a toll of my mood and i delt like im back to my anxious nervous and angry self again. So short-lived! I even had to pray to help me accept whatever going to come is going to be best for me and baby. I just couldn't help myself. Could get a hold of myself. Of course i could have sent her to school and focus on taking care of myself. But abg made a fatal mistake of waking late and obviously not a good idea to rush a whiny toddler to school... idiot... not helping w my mood at all. Although he offered to take leave for the day. I rather have my time alone then have him and the daughter around making me more anxious then i already am. Its nice that i even suggested going for a nice dinner when he is back from work at the end of the day. And warn him its going to be pay back big time. He bought it. But now im feeling all weazy and no mood to go out even. Haiz what's gotten into me. Why so difficult to just be happy and let it go for once!